things changes , the way she treat me and many stuff , i mean the good way . but i really don't know what she is thinking , i ask her out she would hesitate and reply no . do i really that annoying or i smell bad ? i'm being a very patient man lately , if people know me personally know that , i'm not a patient man but i treat her patiently  . never mind next time , is ok , fine next time is always what i reply her . maybe you guys say i'm the type that scares women , in my dictionary there is only man that respect women and don't respect that all , there is no such thing that man scare of women so bottom line i hope she gives me answer (:

it has been long since the last time i update my blog , i have no idea what to write .
i kinda like a girl lately , i text her most of the time but the question is do she like me to ? we have some sweet talk and i get to know that some one else is trying to steal her heart beside me , and she is attracted by both of us , i don't know who is my opponent . i try asking her out few times , sadly she gives reason to push away , when she asked me out , i am kinda bust that time . there is always a road block between us ,she ask me to quit smoke i try my best to reduce it but if i am the only one that is putting effort in it , what is the point 
people told me that she is a bit rude sometimes but i have confident that i can change her , there is nothing you can't quit unless you don't want to and i don't gives a shit what others says . i am having a relationship with her not with other people . if she is not interested on me she can just tell me ,i am a man not a sissy i wont cry on Facebook and scolding people why you don't love me , take it as a man and what man do is wish her for the greatest happiness . That is a man , and i am a MAN ! Thats all for today sentimental talk x)